A. N. | Lately, on my mind
This is a non-exaustive list of stuff that’s crossed my mind in recent days. CW depression etc.
- Am I even a person? Sometimes I dont feel like a human.
- I want a completely different life that has absolutely nothing to do with me and which I had never truly considered until now and I hate myself for it. Or maybe it’s just escapism.
- I don’t know how to do anything.
- I wish I had played video games when I was a kid
- I wish I weren’t so full of shame.
- I have never put my heart into any project bc I’m too scarred from stuff going wrong, I dont have the soul to fail again.
- My brain doesn’t know how to feel happiness, it never did and it never will, apparently. This is gonna be my life until the end of my days. Time and time again, year in and year out, life circles back to this thought.
- Idk how I’m gonna pay to be alive for much longer… still can’t work and it’s nobody’s fault but my own.