Wasted time
CW: suicide.
EDIT: My friend is fine.
My friend who's in China sent me a few texts yesterday evening (my evening). She said she wasn't feeling very well. She said she felt miserable. She's been struggling a lot lately.
I didn't respond. I've been having a hard time for the past two weeks responding to text messages. There's a load of group chats and individual ones that I haven't opened in days.
Today she sent another text with her mom's contact number and saying she'd like to be cremated.
I tried texting, voice calling, video calling, on WeChat, Telegram, WhatsApp... nothing. Spent an hour on that. I think I might've wasted too much time.
After, it took me too long to figure out how to call a number on China (her university). I sent emails to the email addresses on her uni's website asking for an urgent welfare check. I let her mom know, she got ahold of somebody who had traveled with my friend before and was in the uni.
I think I wasted too much time. But I don't know what else I could've done. I'm still waiting for a call or an email. It's morning there but here is almost bedtime for me. I won't be able to sleep though.
I feel sick and lightheaded. I couldn't tell my sister what was happening, she has extreme PTSD with this situation from previous friendships. I told her my friend just wasn't responding to my texts for the last 24 hours. No need to trigger her.
I don't know what I'm supposed to do while I wait.